Memories

I've written so many things about my dad. In fact, my last entry here was a father's day post for him. It's been a few years since he passed and it has honestly felt like eternity, but every time I remember him, his memory is still so alive. And I wish that won't ever change. 

It's been a few years, but it still feels odd every year when this day of my dad's birthday come around and there's no drinking and food and loud conversations happening. You see, my dad used to always have a celebration for his birthday where friends and family come over to drink. When it's the 19th of May, you'll see a long table on the street outside our house filled with people drinking before it even gets dark. It's chaotic, but it's fun and it's the type of celebration I've gotten used to. I also kind of claimed it as my own since my birthday is just a few days after his. Although I don't really invite my own guests. lol

Another thing I really miss is getting him a gift. I've always liked getting gifts for my dad and my mom for special occasions. Though I'm sure I didn't get to do it each and every time, I do when I could. I remember the last thing I got him before he passed were shirts. I think it was for Christmas. I wanted to give him nice clothes because for a while, he wouldn't really buy new clothes for himself. He would just buy cheap ukay-ukay shirts and I've always felt bad about it. He used to always buy white Hanes shirts. He had a ton of it.  That's why I got him two collared shirts. I remember, one of them was black and that was the first thing he pulled out of the paper bag, and he complained saying it's plain black again lol  but we has pleased when he saw another one in different color. He wore that one first. He wore it on Christmas day, I think. It was a gray and yellow one, if I remember correctly. After he passed, those shirts felt special to me. It made me glad that I was able to get him something nice for the last time. It was so special to me that I couldn't manage to get rid of it when we were putting away his clothes. I possibly forced Kuya Dave to take it and keep it lol

I'm missing you extra today, dad. Happy birthday! I wish you're here so I can buy you all the Hanes shirts you want kahit Uniqlo na uso ngayon haha! I'll always keep your memories alive. And I wish your memory stays with everyone you ever knew too.