Looking for: inspiration

I started this blog by the end of last year, and I'm so proud of myself for being able to post consistently at least once a week for more or less two months now. Truth be told, I still don't know what else to post on this blog. I shared a couple of pieces I wrote a few years ago, and to be honest, it's partly because I really can't write these days. I don't know why. So here I am, blabbering, trying to squeeze my brain for something I could write.

When I created this blog, what I had in mind was for this to become my outlet. And somehow, that's what is happening, but there is still a part of me that's holding back. I think, a part of me is still afraid that people will be able to read this. Maybe it will take me a while to be able to pour my heart out to this blog, just like how it took me some time to convince myself to create this. Maybe I need to be able to write something again first; but right now, I have no idea how I could do that. I also want to go back to reading so I could improve my writing, but even that I cannot do.

To be honest, it's like nothing interests me anymore. I feel like everything I try to do is half-baked. I will try to do something but will never get to finish it, I'll say I want to do this but never really act on it, and I feel really awful about being like this. Maybe before anything else, I need to find out how to spark my interests again. I hope sooner rather than later, I learn how to do that and be able to do the things that I want to do again. Then, I hope I find the inspiration to be able to write and to do it with heart. I hope I find not only the inspiration, but also the motivation to do things again. But for now, I'm thankful I'm still able to write this post. I hope I can keep this up long enough until I'm fully inspired and motivated again.